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Sunday, April 24, 2011

When your words just aren't enough..
When fighting through the pain just doesnt seem possible..
When it's not your turn to cry..
When your faith seems pointless
When you are disappointed time and time again..
When you just want to scream
When you want to give up..

There is Jesus... Standing by your side! Never will He leave you! Until He has done what he has spoken to you!!

Jesus, be the centre, be my hope, be my song... <3

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

I could try to write a novel
I could even try to write a poem,

but I cant even try to express in a sentence how I feel

all I know is I'm scared
and lonely again

where do I go from here?

Wednesday, February 02, 2011

Year Two...

year two..
everything is still the same
the world goes by
day by day

I miss you

I remember the way you walked
I remember the way you smelt
I remember how you used to kiss me goodnight

I miss you

I remember the mornings we would snuggle in your bed
(the sleepovers werent the same without it)
I remember the games you used to play with us
(like it was yesterday)

I miss you

I remember the flowers and how you used to water them
(your house always had the best)
I remember making crafts with you
(secretly I think mom loved them more than she let on)

I miss you

I remember you had to take your teeth out at night
(someday I wanted to have to do it too)
I remember "hupa-hupa-rightaa" and taking turns being on your lap
(I hated that part)

I miss you

I remember you would never complain, even if the pain was unbearable
(you didnt want us to see you like that)
I remember your hugs
(you started to get thinner and thinner)

I miss you

I remember 2 years ago sitting in your hospital room
(I left because I couldnt stand to see you like that)
I remember leaving and saying "I love you Opa"
(you responded through the pain.. "Ich liebe dich" - I love you in German)

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

everyday
every minute
every second

I know you are with Jesus now
but it is hard for me to not miss you
I love you very much
you taught me true love
someday I hope I make you proud
someday I hope I can be like you
someday I hope I can love like you did
someday I hope I will see you again

Thursday, January 27, 2011

"I loved who I got to be with him.
Even though I didn't do anything amazing, for me it was.
I felt like I knew myself for the first time."

Thursday, January 20, 2011


"So it's not gonna be easy. It's gonna be really hard. We're gonna have to work at this everyday, but I want to do that, because I want you. I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday."

Saturday, January 15, 2011

This is me swallowing my pride
standing in front of you saying
I'm sorry for that night.

I go back to December all the time

It turns out freedom is nothing but missing you
wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine

I go back to December turn around and make it alright

I go back to December all the time

Tuesday, January 11, 2011

"waiting for you is like waiting for rain in a drought.
Useless and disappointing."