secrets...

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loved
sharing
the
past
couple
days
with
you

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discouraged.

we are sitting around the table.
the questions are starting to be asked.

#1. how was your summer? ... anything exciting?
a safe question.. i answer fully, and leave nothing out.

#2. how is your relationship with God doing at this point in time?
wow.. we jump straight to the point around here...
we start to go around the circle...
first. doing good very excited about what God is doing in their life and peoples lives around them.
second.doing good as well, a few things to work on.
third. thinking about life, and God and what is going on and how to solve some problems.
fourth. wise, but never grows tooo old to learn.
fifth. to be honest i couldnt really hear, so i thought about what i was going to say.
sixth. dealing with the tempting pressures of the world around. but still standing strong.
seventh. sure of God's call, and knows this is a sure thing.
eighth. ME. "My relationship with God is a work in progress."
tenth. realized how blessed we are.
eleventh. learned to communicate with people.
twelfth. a heart for the hurting.

the end of that question.
dissappointed, and discouraged.
the rest of the night just seemed to drag on, not knowing what to say... or if i really even wanted to be there, or listen to what is going on in others lives anymore. everyone else seemed like they had it all together, and knew exactly what God was telling them. when right beside them in the little corner was me, feeling confused, feeling discouraged, feeling like a horrible person.

from this day on.
i refuse to feel like that.
when someone asks me again how my realationship with God is going.
Im going to have an anwer that says how i learned to hear His voice.
how He is the strength and the power i need.
how i am going to love Him with all my heart.

from this day on.

*oldschool*

So why dont you meet me,

down behind our old school.

We'll waste away the weekend,

with perfect regard for how

cavalier we used to be,

that beautiful insanity.

The apathy surrounding me,

dont close your eyes or we'll fade away.