I could try to write a novel
I could even try to write a poem,

but I cant even try to express in a sentence how I feel

all I know is I'm scared
and lonely again

where do I go from here?

Year Two...

year two..
everything is still the same
the world goes by
day by day

I miss you

I remember the way you walked
I remember the way you smelt
I remember how you used to kiss me goodnight

I miss you

I remember the mornings we would snuggle in your bed
(the sleepovers werent the same without it)
I remember the games you used to play with us
(like it was yesterday)

I miss you

I remember the flowers and how you used to water them
(your house always had the best)
I remember making crafts with you
(secretly I think mom loved them more than she let on)

I miss you

I remember you had to take your teeth out at night
(someday I wanted to have to do it too)
I remember "hupa-hupa-rightaa" and taking turns being on your lap
(I hated that part)

I miss you

I remember you would never complain, even if the pain was unbearable
(you didnt want us to see you like that)
I remember your hugs
(you started to get thinner and thinner)

I miss you

I remember 2 years ago sitting in your hospital room
(I left because I couldnt stand to see you like that)
I remember leaving and saying "I love you Opa"
(you responded through the pain.. "Ich liebe dich" - I love you in German)

I miss you
I miss you
I miss you

everyday
every minute
every second

I know you are with Jesus now
but it is hard for me to not miss you
I love you very much
you taught me true love
someday I hope I make you proud
someday I hope I can be like you
someday I hope I can love like you did
someday I hope I will see you again

♥