UGH STOP

post secret

sunday secret

sometimes i lie awake at night

wondering what you dream about.

who is on your mind

who you hate,

who you adore

what makes you the most sad

what makes you the most happy

sometimes i lie awake at night

wondering what you dream about

and if its ever me?

I MISS YOU BOTH SOOOOOO INCREDIBLY MUCH

I CANT GET YOU OUT OF MY HEAD

♥

In her world a boats a yacht

a king size beds a cot

A millions not a lot

Im just trying to get paid for what i say on stage

But if your already paid then i guess you got it made

Your a rich girl and it's gone to far

Cause you know it don't matter anyway

You can rely on the old mans money,

you can rely on the old mans money

It's a bitch girl and it's gone to far

cause you know it don't matter anyway

Say money, money wont get you too far, get you too far

today everything changes
dont worry about me
ill be fine

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG?

im never funny enough...
im never tall enough...
im never open enough...
im never willing enough...
im never skinny enough...
im never smart enough...
im never nice enough...
im never going to have the perfect hair..
im never good enough...

What the hell is wrong with me?

im only enough on the days no one else is there for you.

for you to talk to

for you to befriend

for you to acknowledge

for you to be seen with

for you to "love"

now that I look at it that way,

YOU ARE JUST LIKE HER!

no wonder im so attracted to you.

Its all ive known my whole life.

I have nothing nice to say,
and this is where I need to get this off my chest...

You are straight up mean,
and it makes me sad.
Im tired of your games,
and LIES!!!!
and crap that goes on...
Im tired of you giving me the "holy" speech,
when you have no idea what you are talking about..
its made up,
to make you sound better than everyone else...
IM TIRED OF IT! :(

you embarassed me today..
something that doesnt happen often,
but today it did...
Its gonna take alot for me to forgive you.
I dont think I can right now.

I'm not perfect,

but I keep trying

'Cause that's what I said

I would do from the start

I'm not alive if I'm lonely,

so please don't leave

Was it something I said

or just my personality?

post secret:

You are the only person who has ever cared about me that much.
I blew you off..
Now you are about to get married.
Everyday of my life I regret not giving you a chance.
At least one of us is happy.

im remembering you today

even though I wish I thought about you everyday

today was a beautiful day

one that you taught me to cherish

today I would have loved to spend with you

sitting and talking

or not even speaking a word at all

just being with you made me happy

it hurts that you had to leave

I wish you could come back

but you are with Jesus now

and i'm jealous

I loved you very much

even if sometimes I didnt show it

You taught me alot about life

and how to love others

when you left me, and us

it hurt more than words can say

it was like I couldnt show anyone love anymore

I just need you to know,

thats changing..

im learning again to love like you taught me to,

but more importantly how Jesus is teaching me

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH

and MISS YOU ALOT

im not waiting for the rain anymore

Come down to the river

Come and let yourself in

Make good on a promise

To never hurt again

If you're lost and lonely

You're Broken down

Bring all of your troubles

Come lay 'em down

All you sinners

And the weak at heart

All you helpless

On the boulevards

Wherever you are now

Whatever evil you've found

Bring all of your troubles

And come lay 'em down

i love when you come to visit because:

- you bring your family and i love them very much ♥

- you tell me what you really feel, not some bullshit answer everyone else says

- you treat me like part of your family

- you encourage me to be a better person

- we can joke, and no one else gets the sarcasm but me and you

- you help my parents to relax and that takes the pressure off me

- you believe in me

- you love me for me

♥ thank you for saving my life

you were the only one who cared

you are scared of me and her..

and him and her,

rightfully so

"hurting people hurt others"

i cant watch while you hurt the ones i love anymore.

im done.