its confession time again...

lately its been hard with you,
i never know what its going to be like when i walk in the door.
sometimes its a surprise,
and sometimes i can figure out what is going to happen
just by the look on your face.
I think im ready to give that up.
im ready to let that go.
i hope you can too...
and maybe we can be friends?


you scare me.
not because you look scary,
but because i feel like i dont know you anymore :(
im sorry for that,
i wish i could have saved you all the hurt and pain,
and all the bad choices and drama,
but i cant..
im not your saviour.
but there is someone that loves you very much.
(even more than i do)
and He wants to be your father... and best friend
I hope you see that, and let him in.
it will change your life..
and that would change mine.

I love you
i really do..
its hard at times though :(
i dont know what is going on right now,
but i am praying for you.
i wish you were more open-minded,
but i love you regardless

You continue to amaze me.
I know that sometimes we fight,
and want to KILL each other
but you are someone i care soo deeply about.
i pray for you alot too,
i dont want to see you get hurt.
if you do..
remember ill always be here for you.
im not going anywhere.

i hope God points us in the same direction
cause i dont think i can live my life without you...

read the book...

NOW WHAT????

i

dont

want

to

be

a

part

of

your

stupid

family

anymore

your words cut
your looks kill
your position makes me sad
your love is conditional
your hate brings me down
your passion scares me

-it hurts

and you wonder why i hurt...

i try... to make your life easier

i try... to push past the mistakes we both have made

i try... to be the best daughter in the world

i try... to understand why you do some of the things you do

i try... to have compassion like you do

i try... to have grace like you do

i try... to be outgoing like you are

i try... to show you that i love you, instead of just saying it

i try... to grow spiritually

i try... to love her, like you do

i try... to be half the person you are

i try...

i try...

i try...

i love you very much.

♥

Boy its been all this time
and i cant get you off my mind

nobody knows it but me

i stare at your photograph
still sleep in the shirt you left

nobody knows it but me

everyday i wipe my tears away
so many nights i pray for you to say

i should have been chasing you,
i should have been trying to prove
that you were all that mattered to me

i should have said all the things
that i kept inside of me
maybe i could have made you believe

that what we had was,

all we'd ever need

it was a nice evening,
we talked in amazement,
wonder,
and respect.

as soon as you walked in,
late.. after it was over (might i add)
both of us wanted to throw up
the darkness that surrounded you was overwhelming at times

we continued to talk,
even including you in the conversation.

everything we mentioned,
you shot down..
you had an explaination for all of it
like you wanted us to feel shame


NOTHING WE HAD TO SAY WAS SHAMEFULL!

NOTHING YOU HAD TO SAY WAS POSSITIVE!

i cant sit back and listen to you hurt people anymore
ill have something to say next time.

last night,

its what every day is supposed to be like.

In My presence.

Get ready.

I'm pulling together an army,

an army of warriors.

Nobody, or nothing will stand in their way.

I love you very much,

you are my children.

Battle needs to be done.

Come together,

unify and be one body in My name.

You are my chosen ones,

I need you to fight for me.

YOU are the one to lead them.

we sing... "Lord please come to us..."

they sing... "Lord thank you for meeting us..."



Who has it right???

Id say,

NOT US!

I want to be like them,
to have a love like theirs