I dont know if I can do this

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OPA ♥

I LOVE AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH!

everytime im around you

i cant help but fall for you

when you are happy,

when you are sad,

when you are angry,

and when you are adorable

its like my heart goes out to you whenever

I hate that you have a hold on it.

its like i cant get you out of my head,

or heart.

i wish things were different,

that we could just be friends

but i dont know if that will ever happen

I might always love you

every night the tears come

every night its the same

the hours pass by

you never check to see if i am ok

everything that comes out of your mouth hurts

im sorry im such a failure

I wish you could love me unconditionally.

today you called me selfish..
it hurt

it hurts more because you of all people should know
I HATE MYSELF.

confession time:

I couldnt be happier for the two of you
you make me smile
because you are contantly smiling around each other
im really excited about dinner thursday

♥

i always think its gonna be ok too soon

with you.

you build me up,

and then tear me down.

im tired of hurting

cant you see the pain?

you are the one person i dont hide it from

this has gone on too long

♥

lately the working hasnt bothered me

i dont know what it is,

but i know that you still have time for me,

and you still love me with all your heart

I wish for a minute

we could actually spend some time together though

i miss just sitting at home with you

♥

you cause lots of drama in my life

but its ok

because no matter what

im here for you

not matter who cuts you down

ill always be there to pick you back up

even though sometimes its hard to show

i love you very much

no matter how many "hookers" there are.

♥

Im mad at you
I cant tell you that to your face.
... i cant hurt you
i dont know why
seeing as you hurt me everytime you're around
every time you say her name
every time you admit to doing stupid shit
i still have a place for you in my heart
i still have a desire to talk to you
i still cant get you out of my head
... it hurts
and yes... it is "something you did"

♥

im giving up on you

its been too long

you arent ready

i want to be

but you need time

i wish i saw you more

♥

every time someone mentions your name

i cringe a little inside

its been coming up alot lately

and it hurts every time

if i would have known back then,

i wouldnt have treated you the way i did

i wish

i wish

i wish it didnt have to end like this

♥

you know what you did

and God will be the judge

... just saying

you hurt alot of people

stay out of our lives

stay out of my friends lives too

♥

i wanna be where you are
i wanna walk like you
i wanna talk like you
i wanna be where you are
i wanna be beside you
i wanna be in your presence
i wanna be where you are

♥

its in the movies
its at the local store
its at the coffee shop on a lunch break
its on the street corner waiting for the light to change
its around the pool on a lazy summer day
its what summer is all about
it cant be stored
it cant be bought
it cant be faked
its too real to be anything but extrordinary
its the butterfly feeling in your stomach
its taken for granted all the time


but if I ever had it,
it would be the most precious thing ever.


something to dream about