I cant say this to your face..
not because I cant muster up the nerve,
but because I have no way to contact you.
for that I am truely hurt,
because together we could have been unstoppable.

Im sorry for the way I ignored you,

like the other people around me were better.

Im sorry for the way I responded when you talked to me,

You deserved better than that.

Im sorry that I broke you more times than one.. actually more than I can count,

that was selfish of me.

Im sorry I lead you to believe certain things about me.. but more importantly things about yourself.

Im glad you are still strong.

Im sorry for embarrassing you repeatedly,

I was hurting too.

Im sorry I left you out, and justified it to myself and other people.

I realize now you needed to be included more than anything.

Im sorry I shut you out every time someone new came around, and I wanted to spend more time with them.

You were the bigger person when the "new" friends hurt me, and I turned to you with tears.

but most of all,

Im sorry we dont talk anymore.

I miss you..

and wonder everyday what my life would be like if you were still here.

If you were still around..

if you were still the shoulder I could cry on.

I wish you lots of blessings in your new life.

I wish we didnt have to be so far apart

not only in distance, but in heart.